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So, I guess the sad truth is that a lot of "normal" high school kids are anything but good.
Today was the last homegroup before Confirmation, and so the adults left all the kids outside to eat, drink, be merry. At first it was awkwardly quiet, but then one of the girls started opening up about how mad she was that her parents grounded her for coming home late, drunk, and wasted. And then another girl started saying how she got drunk for the first time at a party, but her brother ratted her out. And then the son of one of the group leaders smokes behind his mother's back. and all this good stuff. At least one guy from servite was "innocent"? hah -__-
Basically, they just lost all my respect that the past two years have built. What a wonderful way to end home group.

ohh boy I was slapped in the face with reality. Oxford is like, the ultimate shelter, isn't it. ._____.

boom chika pow KABLOOEY!

pfft, I'll fix myself if you fix yourself first. take THAT.


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ehhh?!

HAN GENG WANTS TO LEAVE SM ENTERTAINMENT? NOOOOOOO T_______T

Is this karma for that one time I made fun of all these people going, "JAE BUM NOOOOOO" back during the whole 2PM thing? not funny!
ughhh karma's a betch.

In all seriousness, I feel so out of the loop. Today I logged into livejournal for the first time in... a while haha. I really need to log in more in order to stay updated... How long has this been going on?! Apparently SM Entertainment is a no-go for Han Geng because he feels like they're over-working him. So it would be much better for his health and happiness to start fresh in China with a new agency. Now, I don't know the details of the situation because I just found out, but all the same there's a bigger dilemma than Han Geng leaving, and SJM disbanding, and who knows what. I never really considered how these talent agencies actually treated the guys. Their lives seem so glamorous, they have great talent, and heeeello they most of them are gorgeous.
I've seen some of the NEWS and Arashi concert documentaries, and their schedules are friggin crazy. But I am guilty of wishing to be in their shoes, because their lives seem so fun and awesome... but I guess that just goes to show how little the public really knows, eh?

mehehhhh T___T Han Geng requested the courts to terminate his contract with SM, and the case is in April. I really wish he would stay and everything could be back to normal la-de-da again, but the sad truth is that he's not happy. And like Jae Bum, he's the leader (of SJM... not sure about Super Junior though). Even if he loses the case and he's somehow FORCED to stay... he's gonna have no passion and the whole thing'll just be awkward for him and the rest of the members. Basically, nothing'll be the same again.

sighh. This sucks hahah. Even so, I want him to win the case, because it'd be so inhumane if they forced him to stay o___o

i hate

hot weather.
hahah and I hate how I become such a wimp when it's hot like this... Dx
but oh well, I'll get over it sometime. Especially since spring is coming up soon... and then SUMMER XC all over again! whoohoo.

Anyway. Judy's blog got me thinking haha. I REALLY REALLY hate election time and I'm kinda glad Key Club's gotten it over with. But I hate it. I always have. It's like, you gotta let go and trust that people will use their best judgement. That's the hardest part. Sometimes it works out, and other times it doesn't. Whatever happens happens, and you can't do a goshdarn thing about it.
It's that risk that I absolutely hate. And I get really depressed when I see that some people just do things for college. College this, college that. If you're gonna do something for college, at least begin early so you have a chance to try it out and develop SOME KIND OF SENTIMENT for it.

People are starting to freak about about college, especially since seniors have gotten acceptance/rejection letters, and the counselors have been pushing us to "step into leadership roles" and blah, blah blah. Yeah, it's especially shown through the whole ASB ordeal. With ASB primary elections, I can understand why it's such a huge deal to vote for this person and that person. But come ON. What is it that's making so many new people wanting to join? Is it the "easy" competition, or to pretty up college apps next year, or to make up for crappy grades, or the awesome sweater vests, or to genuinely make the school a better place? -____-

great, I'm all worked up now haha.
After ASB elections, so many clubs will be turned over to the hands of 2011. holy crap. It's finally happening.


p.s. "hate this, hate that." haha sorry x] I'm normally never this negative.

bad habit

OMGAH X____x Today at school I was walking to my locker in my track clothes and somebody told me, "Good luck!" And instead of saying "THANK YOU" like a normal person would, I just AUTOMATICALLY said "You too!" SHE'S NOT EVEN ON A SPORT! SHE WAS JUST WALKING AROUND (with her boyfriend :o), gackkk.
This isn't even the first time I've done that! I dunno, IT JUST COMES OUT THAT WAY D: I always just say, "you too!" without thinking. WHY!?!

must think before speaking -__-


Anyway!
Meet was okayy today. I did pretty well in the mile, but I don't really have any times to base it on since I've joined a sport and have gotten stronger. haha fine, I'm happy with my mile time(o: But my 2-mile was pretty disappointing. The pace I had at the first half was fine, but I lost it in the last mile D: ughhh. I didn't stop, but I just wish I hadn't slowed down so much! hahaha OH WELL!

Oxford did REALLY well against Magnolia. like, holy crap well hahah. Go oxford (o:

I can't wait to get spikes :3 The really cool ones can be up to $80, but if you're lucky you can find some REALLY sweet spikes for a lot cheaper. I think I gotta get them with my mom though, so we'll probably end up buying some cheap colorless pair. I'll just stain it with SWEAT and GRASS! MM!

hmm

i dunno. lol.
Yesterday I went to the NYU Abu Dhabi meeting, and it was a little scary. It does sounds pretty cool to go to meet all these international kids and study in Kenya and Egypt and wherever, but I don't think I'm ready for that. I wouldn't be able to study so far away from family and friends and the USA.
And as if I'd get accepted anyway. You'd have to be a super overachieving/involved student to get in. Maintaining good grades AND playing sports AND doing clubs AND religious life, and MAYBE family and friends in-between?! And EXCELLING AT EVERYTHING?! super achiever overload much? heoooo nah, I think I'd like to keep my sanity. How do people do it? I didn't go TOO crazy on the e-c's this year, and I'm having so much trouble not letting my grades go down, doing good enough on the SAT, running track, learning theory for piano, squeezing in community service, practicing french horn, and getting ready for Confirmation all at the same time. hahah but hey, junior year is tough, but at least it's not boring. right?!
Anyway, where was I?

another problem with NYU Abu Dhabi for me is that I have no clue what my major would be, and NYU Abu Dhabi is a liberal arts school (with science and engineering or something like that o____o'). lol I thought it was funny how the representative kept adding the "with science and engineering" part in.

haha well, I think I'll stick to colleges in the United States, thankyouverymuch. Although a full-ride to college does sounds pretty good T___T


tangent! First meet today~ I really don't know how I'll do. I'm not exactly in shape yet and my shins are starting to kill me, but I think I've conditioned enough to at least do my best and be ...okay? I ran 5 miles with Krystal on Monday, and I nearly died because that's the longest I've ran since cross country T___T dudeee... what happened in cross country?! How did I do it?! o____o
Well, I'll just set some easy goals for today and try not to die (o: